...I haven't been doing well. Being MIA is almost always the tell-tale sign that we've been off track.
I don't know what in the hell is wrong with me why I'll be doing so well for a week or two and then I let one poor choice snowball until I gain some weight and feel like shit again. It's the same old pattern over and over again that I can't seem to shake.
There are several things that I have been letting bother me and I've been emotional eating becasue of them:
Living alone for the first time during the holidays and not having much family around
Some financial stress
Finally being close to have enough $ scraped up so that I can get divorced once and for all after being seperated for almost 6 years
Still somewhat having the "what now?" feeling
I NEED to focus on me FOR ONCE. Getting myself right inside and out. I know this and I always say this and start with the best of intentions and then get sucked right back into the self-sabotaging vortex. I need to dig deeper inside to find out why.
Sometimes it takes a whole lot of attempts before we finally get it right. Don't give up on the verge of being successful. Baby steps. Just keep thinking positive thoughts. Just keep making your nest the most comfortable, beautiful place possible. Just keep taking good care of yourself.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you're having such a hard time. ((hug)) Re the weight loss/exercise - don't be so hard on yourself! You know what you need to do. Those things will still be available to you when you're ready to go back to them. One step at a time, doesn't need to be huge.
ReplyDeleteMaybe you should sit down and think of concrete ways you can be good to yourself, list them and post the list so you can see it.
You sound like you're lonely - maybe you can seek out online support specific to empty nesters? I know it's hard to be with others if you're feeling crummy, but maybe physically getting out and being around others is what you need. Go to programs offered by your library, other free activities, volunteer opportunities, etc. Good luck,