THANK GOD that I can feel my motivation returning! I knew that I had to get it back somehow and nothing was going to get it back to me but me. I've been scouring the internet and reading weight loss stories and blogs for inspiration. I've also been reading low calorie cooking blogs trying to find some new things to make so I can eat healthy without feeling deprived. It is only supposed to be in the 50s on Sunday and rainy so I want to make soup. I'm going to give this recipe a try. I've made several recipes from this site and they've all been good.
I'm going to force at least 30 minutes of exercise in each day this weekend, hoping that I'll feel so good that I go for more. I've got to start making things happen again instead of letting the world pass my fat ass by. I know that food is not my friend and I must stop looking at it as anything except fuel for my body but I know that it will take time to change my mindset. I will journal about my feelings when I feel the urge to overeat. I will reward myself with things other than food. I need to stop thinking (somehow) about food so many times a day. I give food too much power. I need to take my power back.
I've tried to talk to a couple of my girlfriends about weight loss and my struggles but they just aren't interested. One is very overweight herself (alot heavier than me). She doesn't say much; in fact, very little. I think that she is afraid that me talking about it will force her to face her own weight issues that she's not ready to confront. That's why I like it here; this place is specifically for that. I can talk about everything with no filter and get such great support.
I feel alot better lately with what I thought might be depression over empty nest/mid-life stuff. I firmly believe it was all being caused by severe PMS or perimenopausal stuff. When I was feeling that way I was in the middle of having my period for 12 straight days!!!!!!!!!!!! When that left, the symptoms left. I've researched some natural stuff online (black cohosh and St. John's wort and a few others) but I'm not sure about trying it yet - especially since the symptoms have diminished.
One of these days I'd like to meet a man again that I can be with for the rest of my life. Sitting in the house getting fatter will not lead me to him. Now is the time that I should be working on myself, making myself better inside and out so that I can attract a mate when the time comes. Lord knows that I have alot of free time so I need to use it to focus on being the best me that I can be. You gotta have good bait to catch a good fish, right?
So, wish me luck success as my motivation returns. I'm starting to feel better. It's up to me to turn things around. Only I have the power. I can do this.
I knew that I had to face the reality of what I am doing to myself so I finally got on the scale this morning. 246. I can do this.
I knew you'd find your motivation again. It's just a bunch of little steps and then before you know it, you'll have traveled this great distance. The more you change your mindset every single day, the harder it is to be on the unhealthy path. Can you find a group class to join? Is there something at the Y? It sounds like you'd really benefit from the companionship and shared goals of other women.
ReplyDeleteI think Gina's baked potato soup is the most posted recipe. It looks divine and perfect for fall. Yum.
You need to make an appointment with your gyn before taking anything. Also, my gyn told me today that if your period lasts longer than 7 days, you should let them know. Definitely keep that all in check so you can stay healthy.
Here's to a fabulous weekend!
I'm glad you're in higher spirits and finding your motivation. :) That soup sounds great. I need to try cauliflower!
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