I feel like I'm playing mind games with myself. I know what I need to do to get back on track but for some reason I can't seem to do it. I know that I'm only sabatoging myself and that it's a battle that I'm fighting myself in my mind. Why do I continue to do it when I feel like crap and know in my heart that eating right and exercise will help me to feel better inside and out? Am I afraid off success? Afraid of failure? Too lazy? Self esteem too low? I keep telling myself that I will start tomorrow, but I never do. I keep taking the easy way out and do nothing. Meanwhile, I'm getting fatter and more unhealthy and this contrubutes to lower self esteem and more emotional eating. What a roller coaster.
I know this is just a mind game that I play with myself and that I have the power to overcome it by changing my way of thinking. SO WHY DON'T I DO IT????
What have you done to change your way of thinking so that you quit self-sabotaging?
ETA: So after I posted this I hopped over to check out Bitchcakes' blog and she had a great post about this very topic. She has the most amazing self confidence that just oozes right out of her posts. Thanks Bitchcakes for giving me what I needed, right when I needed it.
I love her blog--very inspiring reading. You have to force yourself to be active. Just start walking a little bit each day and then you'll grow to look forward to it and want to do it regularly. You can work on the eating part later, or just decide to knock out one junky food; it doesn't have to be all or nothing. I do know that I can't believe that I'm back in the gym and spinning and lifting weights 5 days a week. All I did was decide to go to one spin class and well, that one class was just what I needed to get unstuck.
ReplyDeleteYou can do this and you WILL feel better about yourself. In the meantime, fresh flowers, bubble bath, and really good dark chocolate will work wonders.
Hank - Thanks so much for your great advice. I think that's alot of what my problem was - I was thinking that I had to be all or nothing or else I was a failure. Your comment made me think back to when I lost the 70 pounds before and I surely wasn't all or nothing then. I just did a little at a time and it started to snowball from there after I started feeling better. Apparently that's what happened with you being back to working out 5 days a week. What an inspiration you are! :)
ReplyDeleteYep. You lost those 70 pounds by making lots of little changes over a period of time and you can lose them again by doing the same thing. Sheesh--you are an inspiration to me--I have never lost 70 pounds in my life and cannot even imagine the dedication and belief that would take. Seriously, YOU did that and you have it in you to do again.
ReplyDeleteBtw, I go by Miss Mel or Mel; Hankpanky is my kitty. I used to have a journal on here, but lost all my information, so I couldn't get my old login back. I always wonder if anyone reading my blog looks at Hankpanky and thinks I'm some old man or some pervert...interesting thought.
Also, if you look up the JM books, there are two that I saw on Amazon. One is specifically about metabolism and the other is about aging, but that one deals with the hormonal changes that go along with the aging process.
Mel - Cute re. the kitty name; I never thought anything of it, lol. I think I remember seeing comments or maybe even your old blog under Miss Mel. The JM book that I looked at on Amazon was "Master Your Metabolism". I read the preview and it sounds like it may be good. It got good reviews, too.
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