Being Kinder to myself

Why is it easier to be our own worst enemy rather than our own best friend? That's usually the way it goes...

For the past couple of weeks my weight loss has stalled. There for a while I was on roll with the weight coming off nicely. I wasn't counting calories, just eating primal and having sensible portions.  Somewhere I started veering off the path. I'm in no way making excuses but here's what I think happened (I need to own it in order to move on)...

 I decided to start tracking in MyFitnessPal. I plugged in that I wanted to lose 1.5 pounds a week and it told me that I could eat 1600 calories a day. That seemed like a lot, but I ate them, and my portions slowly started growing from what I had been eating. I'd watch the scale go up one day and down the next, basically I've been maintaining. I've recently adjusted MyFitnessPal to allow myself 1200 calories a day.

I've also been slacking on the exercise. One day off turned into another, turned into more than a week. I was starting to feel stiff again and I don't like it at all. Once you get out of exercising, it's so hard to get back at it. I was also getting discouraged that the scale wasn't moving and that didn't help with my motivation. I know how good I feel when I'm in the groove and exercising several times a week and I want that back again. I want that loose, flexible feeling of a healthy body. This morning I got up early and did a two mile walking video and this evening I'm going to go arm exercises. I know that a few days in and I'll start feeling great again.  I'm glad that I knew enough to get these two things in check.

I have been eating good though (other than too much). My fridge is packed with produce. I actually think I have more in there that I can eat before it goes bad. I'm still buying and making too much than one person can eat - especially when it's fresh perishable produce. I'm not going to buy anything else until I use up what I have.

I've been beating myself up about this stall for about a week now. I must be kinder to myself. I must focus on the positive:  I never give up, I'm learning more everyday (I'm thankful that I WANT to learn and am open-minded), I'm healthy despite being obese and don't take any medications, I'm making it on my own as a single woman and don't need a man to live off of, like many women I know, I have this blog community of amazing people for inspiration and support. Life is good. I'm being too hard on myself for a minor setback. I must learn to be my own best friend.

That being said, I weighed in at 227.8 this morning.  Let's see what I can accomplish this week :)