Friday, August 30, 2013

Happy Long Weekend!



I cannot wait until this workday is over with. Four day weekend, baby!

I don't have any set plans, just playing it by ear. Tuesday is my birthday (I turn 45...damn, I'm getting old!) and my DD is treating me to a mani/pedi and lunch.  I'm going to treat myself to something this weekend - I'm thinking it's going to be Paul Mitchell hair products.

I'm thinking of joining a CSA (Community Supported Agriculture) group where you pay a certain amount for several weeks (either 6 or 11) and then every week you pick up a box of fresh, local, organic produce.  I've just discovered one close to me and it has great reviews.  You can even add organic meat, eggs and milk, if you'd like. They do it year round since they grow in green houses, too. It's all new to me, so I'm still thinking it over. Anyone else have any experience with CSAs?





Have a great, relaxing weekend everybody!

Thursday, August 29, 2013

So-called Diet Desserts

I kind of feel like the Food Police talking about this, but I wonder if others are coming across the same thing of people being oblivious to what they are really eating.
 
 


Last evening my sister sent me the picture above with the text, "Diet cheesecake...can you believe it?"

The first thing I thought was, "No, I don't believe it." I asked her what was in it and she said FF cottage cheese, RF cream cheese, RF sour cream, FF caramel sauce on top. I asked her what the brown stuff was on top and she said that it was 2 Health Bars chopped up!!!  HOLY HELL!  How can someone really believe that this is "diet" food and that it's good for you??  She also told me that she made "diet" pimento cheese spread.  How can you make pimento cheese diet? It's cheese and mayo and you spread it on bread. Ummm, no.

Keep in mind that my sister is about 80 pounds overweight, and her husband, although slim, has heart disease and is pre-diabetic. He is the kind of man that wants a hearty full course meal, every meal, of meat and potatoes and a new dessert every day. She likes to cook and is always scouring recipe books for new things to make. She is another that sticks her nose up at primal eating, because she doesn't understand it, has no desire to understand it, and because she eats things that are too complicated. By that I mean that she wants to eat casseroles and foods with too many ingredients and then complains that it's too hard to count calories. I tried to tell her that she's making it too hard. She needs to eat whole foods. A lean protein, lots of vegetables and a little fruit and nuts. Too boring for her, I guess. Well, I'd like to eat the casseroles and sauces and desserts, too, but I know that I cannot eat that way and be healthy and expect any kind of weight loss. I also cannot eat that way without cravings and overeating.

In my opinion, I need to stay away from all "makeover" desserts (and foods for that matter) and stick with whole foods. You're only fooling yourself with the makeovers and I believe that you'll still get cravings from those foods, because they still contain sugar and fat (I looked up the cheesecake recipe out of curiosity and it has 15 grams of fat per slice!  Told you I felt like the Food Police.)

A while back, and only for a minute, I contemplated making desserts/pancakes out of the "fake" flours (almond, coconut, buckwheat) but I decided that would put me on a slippery slope to allowing more and more of the things that I should be staying away from that could cause cravings, and therefore, cause binging. Maybe one day I'll be able to eat those foods, but not now.

I've gotten off track a little about people not realizing what they are actually eating and how so-called "diet" desserts, that for the most part, still aren't good for you.  I think a lot of people, my sister for one, are in denial of how bad the food that she's eating really is because:  1) she still wants to be able to eat it and believe/tell herself it's healthy while still indulging   2) she likes to cook, and especially bake, and she can if she still has this way of thinking  3) she wants to "take care of" her family and show her love with food.

I think that for the most part it's denial.  There may be some people out there who can indulge in these types of foods and still remain slim and healthy but I think they're most likely people who do not have food addictions.

Of course, this is only my opinion, what are your thoughts on so-called "makeover, diet" desserts/foods?











Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Feeling Better

I think I've finally gotten all of the crap out of my system and my cravings are gone for the most part and I've almost lost the 3 pounds that I put on with the Italian Ice fiasco. I'm just plugging along and trying to get back into the exercise groove.  Boy, it's hard to get back into it when you've slacked for a while. I've been walking a little and doing squats and kettlebell exercises for my arms. When I did the squat challenge I saw a difference in my butt, so I want to do squats a couple times a week to maintain it.

I was looking in my closet the other day and realized that I need to get some fall and clothes.  I don't have much that actually fits, the pieces are either too small or too big.  I also need to get some fall shoes.  I do, however, have my glorious new Dooney and Bourke fall handbag that my DD gave me for an early birthday present.  I was so excited when I got it, I just sat there and looked at it. The new leather smell was intoxicating :)



 
 
Over the weekend my DD went to the orchard and bought some apples and asked me to make homemade applesauce with her and to can it.  Can it?  I'd never canned anything in my life. But, thanks to Mr. Google and Mrs. Internet we made homemade pink applesauce and canned it and it came out perfectly.  The only sugar that we added was 1/3 cup of Red Hot cinnamon candies to the whole batch of applesauce.  I was so proud of us canning for the first time and all of our lids sealed as they were supposed to :)
 
 
 
Monday we're supposed to work even though it's Labor Day.  It's a paid holiday for us that we take at Christmas break so we get more time off while the students are gone. There are classes on Labor Day, so we have to work. I've decided to take a vacation day Labor Day and take off Tuesday, the 3rd, which is my birthday.  I've taken off those two days ever since I started working here; why stop now?  I don't have any plans right now, but I'm going to do something. Four day weekend. WOOT!
 
That's all I have for now. make it a great day!
 

Friday, August 23, 2013

Owning it.

I'm owning that I'm a sugar addict. 

I'm also owing that I went of the primal path and bought a box of Italian ices last week. 

I was wanting something sweet and light with low calories and fat so I quickly chose these on my sweep through the grocery store:



The box said gluten free, fat free, excellent choice of vitamin C.  I couldn't go wrong. Or could I?

I inhaled 2 at one sitting.  Not long after that I found myself rummaging around for something else sweet, crunchy, salty... something!  But I had nothing sweet or crunchy or salty. I am eating primally now (aren't I?) so I had nothing in the house that would satisfy that craving. So I overate on what I did have, which was healthy, but still, I was over eating and I knew it. I knew it while I was doing it. But I couldn't stop. I was an addict that craved another hit. Another hit of those mouth-wateringly delicious orange Italian ices.

In the course of two days I ate all six of them. I later noticed the sugar content on the nutrition label. 20 GRAMS OF SUGAR IN EACH CUP.  Holy shit!!! According to MyFitnessPal I'm only supposed to be eating 34 grams of sugar a day.  Look at the quote at the bottom of the picture above:  "The flavor is so delicious you'll want another."  They weren't joking either.


 
 
20 grams of sugar in each cup.  No wonder they were good. 
 
Look at the ingredients - there are three kinds of sugar listed, but yet it was labeled as being "healthy" because it had vitamin C, low calories and was gluten and fat free.
 
I gained 3 pounds during this sugar fiasco and am now in the process of detoxifying.  Getting the poison out of my system that made me feel like crap; made me sluggish and sapped my energy; the sugar that I am addicted to. The sugar that I can not be trusted to have even in small amounts.
 
I know the feeling of eating primally when you feel fully in control and proud of your choices. The feeling of no guilt and endless energy. The feeling of clean eating. It feels wonderful. This sugar binge was surely not worth not feeling that way just for a taste of something that only lasted minutes.
 
Learn from it and move on. This is a learning process that never ends. Lesson learned here. I'm taking my power back.
 


Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Randomness

Not much happening on the weight loss front - just plugging along. I feel like I don't really have much to say or contribute anymore (blog wise) and I'm not really into blogging lately. I think I will drop posting to twice a week. I'm still keeping at the weight loss but my groove for blogging is waning, as it sometimes does.

I've decided to rent a booth space in an antique-y mart that is near my house.  I'm going to sell my furniture re-dos and makeovers.  People have been telling me all along that I should sell them so I've decided to give it a try. I really enjoy doing it and it's a relaxing hobby for me. The booth rental is on a month-to-month basis, and is cheap, so if it doesn't work out, no big deal. Right now I'm on a waiting list with about ten people ahead of me so that will give me time to build up merchandise. I know a couple of people that currently have booths in this space and they're doing well. It's worth a try.

I made a big pot of vegetable soup the other day so I would have that to eat off of all week. Man, was it good. I ate 3 big bowls that day and had to stop myself from eating more. I felt compelled to keep eating it even though I was full. I wonder if it had anything to do with the few potatoes that I threw in it for heartiness.  Hmm...

My DD is coming over this evening to bring me my early birthday present (my birthday is September 3). She was too excited and couldn't hold back telling me what she got me. It's this Dooney and Bourke purse. We've both been drooling over them for a while now and she told me that she thought I deserved to have a beautiful handbag so she bought this for me.  I really wanted this one, which is the one that she ordered, but when it came it was the wrong one, so I'm going to check it out this evening and see if I want to keep this one or exchange it for the other. So exciting and what a wonderful surprise!

Well, that's it for now.  I'm going to catch up with everyone this afternoon.

Thursday, August 15, 2013

Building the New



This is a good message for me in many areas of my life.  Sometimes I feel like I keep looking back to what is familiar, instead of looking forward and building the new.

Today I have a couple NSVs to share:

Last evening I walked for an hour and 15 minutes. Yes! The weather was very mild and refreshing and it felt good to be outside.

I made a conscious effort to drink more water yesterday and will again today.

This morning it was chilly on my way to work (51° - WTH? It still is summer, isn't it?) so I dug out a cardigan that I haven't worn since the beginning of spring and it is almost too big to wear. It is saggy under the arms and definitely "longer" since the last time I wore it. With my stall lately, I forgot that I still have lost 30 pounds. Nice reminder and motivation that I needed.



Do any of you have this Tupperware microwave egg cooker?  If not, get one!  Since I went primal, I eat eggs almost every morning and I need to make them fast before I head out to work and I use this thing often.  This morning I made a delicious, fluffy, perfectly cooked feta cheese omelet in two minutes. Nothing sticks! It slides right out no matter what ingredients you have in there.  The best part is there is no pan to clean.

I have an appointment to get a haircut after work. I'm in desperate need.  I'm going to a new guy that is supposed to be really good and I'm anxious to see how it comes out.  Wish me luck!

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Tightening My Grip

Not much happening, so I don't have much to report; just journaling, really.

The weather has turned cool here, it's only supposed to be in the mid 70s for the next 5 days. It is sunny and gorgeous, though - perfect weather for walking so I'm going to log a couple miles this evening.

I haven't weighed for a while, TOM is here and I'm bloated. I've been giving the scale too much power in the past couple of months and driving myself crazy with maintaining when I want to be losing. I need to set myself some mini goals and concentrate on them instead of the scale.

Here are some things that I want to concentrate on weekly:

Drink more water. (I noticed yesterday afternoon around 5:00 that I only had one cup of coffee and one bottle of water all day. Wth? No wonder my energy is waning.)

Be more diligent on my food logging, calorie counting and portion control. (I've been slacking in this area and it's too easy to overeat without realizing it.  It's a pain for me to get out the iPad and log in MyFitnessPal every time I want to log my food so I'm going to buy a pretty notebook and give that a try.)

Get back to exercising at least 5 days a week.  I was on a good routine there for a while, but then started exercising only when I'd feel like it. Mistake. That makes me lazier. When I exercise I have more energy and feel better, so the more I exercise, the more I want to. Just do it. I used to have an almost obsessed feeling about exercise (particularly walking) and would get pissed if it would rain and I couldn't go. I was my me time. My meditation time. I want that feeling back.

I feel good, other than decreased energy (which I can easily solve). Eating is good. I need to buy less produce at a time and bite the bullet and make more trips to the grocery store. I've noticed that for the past 2 months I've been throwing away around $15-20-ish a week in fresh produce that goes bad before I can eat it. That's gotta' stop. It's hard to buy/cook for one person.

For those of you that count calories/track your food - how do you do it?  Maybe one of you have a great idea that I'll have to steal ;)

That's it for now. Make it a great day!