One day at a time.

I'm trying desperately to regain my motivation. My eating was pretty good yesterday except I'm having a hard time drinking more water. Last evening I walked 2.5 miles outside. I enjoy being out in the the fresh air and sunshine. I think I will alternate days between walking and a dvd workout. I will aim for 6 days a week. I've started checking off the days on the calendar that I have on the fridge so that I can see how many days I've exercised that week, hoping that it will motivated me.

I weighed in this morning at 238.4. OMG! I have TOM but still... My daughter and her BF bought the Insanity workout and have just started it. I watched the infomercial for it and was looking at the before and afters. I weigh alot more than the men do at their "before" stage. Holy shit. I feel really gross lately, between being fat, a bad new haircut, same-old-same-old clothes, shoes, accessories. I need to treat myself to something new. I would always buy stuff for the house because it is easier than shopping for stuff for myself. I don't have to worry about trying it on or how it will fit. I would buy stuff for the house before I would buy myself something that I needed. I need to start making myself a priority. I scheduled myself for a pedicure this Saturday at the spa where my daughter works. I'll start with that. Maybe I will treat myself to a new pair of sandals to show off my pedicure.

One day at a time on the path to learing to love myself.