Finding My Groove

Todays weight 233.0

I had a great weekend. I walked over 7 miles this weekend, plus did some kettlebell exercises. I stocked up on tons of healthy foods, too. My eating has been great for a week now, and I'm starting to feel better already with more energy. I did, however, eat at Red Lobster on Saturday. I had the broiled seafood platter with a tiny bit of rice and 2 of those yummy biscuits. 

I treated myself to a pedicure and then went shopping and bought myself 2 shirts, earrings, a pair of sandals and a lot of stuff from Bath and Body Works. It felt good to focus on me for a change.

Yesterday I had a big cook day. I made a bunch of stuff that I can eat off of all week so when I get home from work and I'm ravenous, all I have to do is heat something up. I made the most yummy fish packets yesterday with Tilapia, soy sauce, cajun seasoning, fresh spring onions and orange bell pepper.

I'm glad to be getting back into the groove again. It sure helps to see a drop on the scale, too - makes you want to keep going.

Hanging in there

I'm hanging in there with diet and exercise. I've been alternating my days all week between walking 2 miles and the Bob Harper kettlebell workout. Last night was the dvd. I finally tried the parts that I couldn't do before (pushups, mountain climbers, cliff scalers), I still couldn't do them right but I did what I could and I guess I will build myself up. My arms aren't strong enough to do those moves. I couldn't even do a girl push up on my knees. Baby steps. I do like using the kettlebell alot though.

Last evening after I ate dinner I wanted something sweet (of course) so I went for a skinny cow ice cream bar that I had in the freezer. I took two bites and decided that they weren't good enough to spend my calories on and I threw it away. In fact, I threw the entire box away. I don't need any trigger foods in the house. I also had a big bag of dehydrated mini marshmallows (like the kind that you put in hot chocolate) that kept calling to me so I pitched them in the trash too.  Today is payday so I'm going to stock up on produce and try a new fruit or veg that I've never had before. I always have the urge to snack in the evenings so I'm going to make kale chips again. I saw them in a magazine and made them a few times before and liked them. I am a chip girl. I would rather eat chips than a piece of cake or candy. I like putting garlic powder on my kale chips. If you've never tried them before you can check the recipe out here. So easy.

Since my daughter moved out 3 weeks ago and I now live alone I don't know if meals are harder or easier for me. In one way harder - it is easier to grab something already prepared or processed since I have nobody to cook for and that's not good. I have nobody to sit down and have dinner with so I want to eat on the go and so on.  On the other hand it is easier, I don't have to cook if I don't want to, I don't have to worry what someone else wants to eat - I can eat cereal for supper if I feel like it. Of course my grocery bill went down too. So, I'm really not sure about it yet. I do know that most of the time that I don't want to mess up the kitchen cooking for just me. Maybe I can make alot of things on the weekend that I can just heat up and eat through the week. I also find myself wanting to snack more since I'm home alone with nobody to talk to. I need to do a little exercise every time I feel like snacking.  I think I also need to try a few new recipes to switch it up a little.

I lost a little on the scale  - this morning I weighed in at 136.2.  As long as I'm moving in the right direction I'll take it. I have also gotten through the whole week with no soda! YAY!

My daughter and her BF started the Insanity workout 5 days ago and he has already lost 7 pounds and she has lost 3. Damn! They both said that it's the hardest thing that they've ever done but they are hanging tough. I'm anxious to see the results. Do any of you know anyone who has completed Insanity?

Here's to a great weekend! :)

One day at a time.

I'm trying desperately to regain my motivation. My eating was pretty good yesterday except I'm having a hard time drinking more water. Last evening I walked 2.5 miles outside. I enjoy being out in the the fresh air and sunshine. I think I will alternate days between walking and a dvd workout. I will aim for 6 days a week. I've started checking off the days on the calendar that I have on the fridge so that I can see how many days I've exercised that week, hoping that it will motivated me.

I weighed in this morning at 238.4. OMG! I have TOM but still... My daughter and her BF bought the Insanity workout and have just started it. I watched the infomercial for it and was looking at the before and afters. I weigh alot more than the men do at their "before" stage. Holy shit. I feel really gross lately, between being fat, a bad new haircut, same-old-same-old clothes, shoes, accessories. I need to treat myself to something new. I would always buy stuff for the house because it is easier than shopping for stuff for myself. I don't have to worry about trying it on or how it will fit. I would buy stuff for the house before I would buy myself something that I needed. I need to start making myself a priority. I scheduled myself for a pedicure this Saturday at the spa where my daughter works. I'll start with that. Maybe I will treat myself to a new pair of sandals to show off my pedicure.

One day at a time on the path to learing to love myself.

What does it take to get motivated?

I can't get motivated to save my soul! I'll do good for a day or two and then I will slide right back into the fat pit. The hell of it is that I know how good I will feel after a few days on track, of exercise, clean eating, vitamins, exercise... so what is my problem? Emotional eating is my problem.

How did I get and keep that motivation before when I lost 60 pounds? I must somehow find it again. I must do this for myself. I think before that I never really liked myself or I wouldn't have let myeself become obese. I've learned to like myself (I'm working on loving myself) and I want better for myself. I want deserve to be slim and healthy. After recently becoming an empty nester I've realized that I'm not so bad after all. It's time to move into the next phase of my life. It's time to find a mate to share the rest of my life with. And I know to catch a big fish you gotta' have good bait.

Kettlebell Workout

Well, I made it through the Bob Harper kettlebell workout last evening.  There were some parts that I couldn't do (mountain climbers and cliff scalers) yet but I did the rest of it, it lasted 50 minutes. I can see where this workout could really firm up your arms and abs. I like the video and can see myself doing it again without getting sick of it.  Bob is not annoying like some of the trainers on other dvds. I used a 10 pound kettlebell and this was plenty for a beginner like me. I think I will alternate this workout with some other type of exercise, I think it would be too much to do it everyday and my arms would turn to jello.

My eating was pretty good yesterday with the exception of me eating ALOT of corn nuts, LOL, of all things. I can see where this is a trigger food for me and that I should not keep them in the house. I tell myself that I will only eat a little bag at a time but it doesn't happen that way, they call to me from the cabinet and I cannot be trusted with them.

I must drink more water today.

Pushing On

I did not eat well over the weekend. I did, however, buy a new workout outfit and a 10 pound kettlebell. I've been wanting a kettlebell forever.  I have a Bob Harper kettlebell workout dvd that I found at Goodwill for $3.95. I will do my best at it this evening. Eating today has been on track. I can't seem to get my water in though.

I watched Extreme Makover Weight Loss Edition last night.  The man that was on there went through ALOT of rough patches (a breakup, death of a son) and he still lost 200 pounds in one year. He said that the key is learning to love yourself. I know that's part of my issue. I like myself, but I'm still learning to love myself. Pushing on...

Made it through another day

Last evening I forced a two mile walk.  I ate fairly well yesterday and saw another drop on the scale. (235.2)  Lord, help me through the weekend...