Friday, August 3, 2012

The day we've all been waiting for...

... is finally here - FRIDAY!  TGIF for sure!

Not much to report.  My weight was exactly the same this morning, for some reason that aggravates me when that happens, it just seems so odd to weigh exactly the same two days in a row.  Better than a gain though!

My eating was OP yesterday and I did 30 minutes of random exercises in the house.  I've decided that Friday will be my day off from exercising, so YIPPEE! No exercise tonight!

I wanted to mention something I've noticed.  I used to get what I thought was a tension headache almost everyday at the base of my skull. Since I've been chugging water lately, I've noticed that I don't get these headaches at all anymore.  I've also noticed that my joints aren't as stiff after I sit for a while or when I get out of bed.  I'm sure this has to do with the water.  My body is probably like, "Finally, she is giving me what I need."  Would we do without watering our droopy plants that need water?  No.  So why don't we do the same for our body so that it can function properly?

I don't have anything planned for the weekend, just the usual house cleaning and laundry.  My goal is to get in a full hour of exercise on Saturday and Sunday.  No problem, I will just split it up into 2 sessions.  I'm not that far from my first mini goal of 235 so I hope to reach it by Monday.

Make it a great day and Happy Friday!

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Long Week

I don't know about you but this has been one long work week for me.  I'm ready for the weekend!

Yesterday was another OP day with eating (I haven't gone over 1200 calories for a week) and exercising.  I've given myself the goal to exercise at least 30 minutes a day, 5 days a week.  Yesterday I didn't feel like walking so I just did random exercises (kettlebell, abs, stretching) in the house for 30 minutes while I watched Seinfeld.  I've gotten into the habit of watching the Seinfeld reruns that come on at 7 and 7:30, lol.

This morning I weighed in at 236.2.  I'm down 4.2 pounds in a week. Yay! This is the first time in forever that I have actually lost weight with TOM. :)

Let's make it a great, on-point day!

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

August Already

I cannot believe that it's August already!  Before you know it fall will be here.  The older I get the quicker time flies.  My mom warned me that would happen and it's true.

I'm happy to report that yesterday was another OP day with eating and exercise and water.  Yay me!  Last evening I did kettlebell excersises.  I'm using a 10 pound bell right now and I think I need to up it to a 15 pounder.  Since I've been eating more healthy and taking my vitamins I'm slowing starting to feel better and less sluggish.  Exercise definitely helps and I've noticed that my body is less creaky when I get up in the morning.

Todays weight = 236.8  (I know that I said I was going to avoid the scale for a few days since is TOM but I couldn't resist ;)  )

Keep on keepin' on

I've been staying OP with eating and exercise, tracking in sparkpeople, which is SO EASY.  Last night I did kettlebell exercises, I guess tonight I'll walk since it's so nice out.

I didn't weigh this morning 'coz I got TOM last night (joy) and am bloated and crampy.   I'm going to try to resist the scale for a few days and then hope for a whoosh when TOM is gone.

Do you know anyone that all they want to do is talk about themselves in run-on sentences where you can't get a word in edge-wise and they just seem to recite a monologue every time you're around them and as soon as you start to say something about yourself or TRY (in vain) to change the subject off of them they totally ignore you and keep on going and going and going....?  (How's that for a run-on sentence?)  You know who I'm talking about - someone who makes you want to stick a fork in your ear rather than listen to them drone on for one more second and when you FINALLY break away from them they leave you feeling like you've run a marathon, you're so exhausted just from listening to them??  OMG, I have someone around me like that and I can't take it.   I think that people like this must be too needy or insecure or something - why else would someone be like that?  It's like they have the need to be validated or something.

Let's keep on keepin' on and don't let the fat win!

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Workin' Myself Back into the Groove

Literally.  I'm proud to say that I met all of the goals that I had for myself for the weekend.  One of my goals was to get my water in and I did it.  I drank ten 12 oz. glasses of water each day.  It is usually hard for me to drink water but I got out a cozy piece of stemware and loaded it up with ice, a slice of lemon and a cute straw and suddenly I wanted to drink it. 

My other goal was to walk 4 miles on both Saturday and Sunday.  Done.  So I wouldn't get overwhelmed with the walking I broke it up into two sessions - 2 miles in the morning and 2 miles in the evening.  I also did kettlebell exercises for 10 minutes in the afternoon.

THE BEST THING that I did over the weekend was to load the sparkpeople app onto my phone.  I love, love, LOVE it!  This may just be my saving grace.  I was so tired of counting points on WW (so tired of it that I couldn't bring myself to do it any longer) and I knew that I needed to keep track of my calories so I thought I'd give this a try.  It's so easy and the app is free!  All weekend I tracked my water intake, exercise and calories.  You just enter the food and it automatically calculates your calories, fat, carbs, protein.  This also comes in handy for me becasue I'm trying to up my protein.  If you're not familiar and want to check it out, the app is sparkpeople.com (of course you can do it on your computer, too).  My goal right now is to stay under 1200 calories and I'm happy to report that I did that, also. :)

Todays weight = 238.2 (-2.2)

Make it a great day!

Thursday, July 26, 2012

Glorious Friday!

Yay for Friday!  I don't have any plans this weekend, just the usual house cleaning and laundry.  I do plan to get in alot of exercise this weekend though.

Yesterday was so hot here (100°) so I waited until 8:30 in the evening to go for a walk.  It was still in the low 90s and very humid but I thought I'd give it a try anyway.  I did 6 laps at the high school track and then it was dark so I went home and did a few kettlebell exercises.  This morning I was down exactly one pound on the scale.  I'll take it.

Since I have alot of free time this weekend I'm going to try to exercise twice on Saturday and Sunday - morning and evening.  There is no reason why I can't do this.  I used to get up at 7:00 in the morning just to go walking.  If I did it before I can do it again.  I know if I keep going long enough to see a couple pounds fall off I will start feeling better and my motivation will return.  I'm going to give myself 5 pound goals at a time so that makes my next goal 235.

For any of you that have lost a large amount of weight - do you know what I'm talking about when I say you get that obsessed feeling about losing weight?  That feeling that you have when you are eating on point, rockin' the exercise, feeling better every day with more energy than you've had in a long time?  I had that feeling when I lost over 60 pounds a few years back and I ABSOLUTELY LOVED THAT FEELING and I want it back.  I loved the feeling of being so excited to feel those little hunger pangs in the evening but not caving to eat anything else after dinner knowing that when I would weigh in the morning that the scale would show a loss.  Hell, I would actually be anxious to get on the scale.  I could tell just by the way that my body felt that I was losing weight.  That is the glorious feeling of getting healthy.  I must keep going until I get that feeling back. 

Make it a great day and stay positive.  :D

MIA

Yes, I've been MIA for a month now. I know, I know... How would anyone follow this fly-by-night blogger?  At this point I'm really just here to try to make myself accountable again.  I can tell you that nothing exciting has happened with me on the weight loss front in that time. :(  I'm struggling to find motivation and I know that when I blog I hold myself more accountable.

 I need to be here for motivation and inspiration. I know what I need to do, it all makes sense to me in my mind - but actually putting actions behind those words is a different story.  I know that I need to be healthy.  I want to be healthy, slim, fit, strong.  I want to be slim so that I feel good and have more energy, and yes, for vanity's sake, too.  I don't want to be old with ailments and on medication.  I see other people who are sickly and are taking meds for this and that and I'm so thankful that's not me, but if I keep on, it will be me.  I need to look better if I want to attract a mate (I've been single for over 5 years).  I don't want to be alone for the rest of my life.  I'm only 43 years old.  That's not too old to find a mate, is it??  Would I want a mate that is obese?  No, probably not.  At 240 pounds I weigh more than alot of men. O.M.G.  That is a sickening reality.

I emotionally eat. ALOT.  Recently, more than ever before.  I recently became an empty nester, and I think it is affecting me even worse since I'm single.  I'm extremely proud of my daughter and I don't worry about her but what I'm struggling with is my loss of idenity.  I feel like I don't have a purpose right now.  I'm nobody's wife/S.O., and my role as a mother has drastically changed.  I do enjoy my freedom, though.  It is nice to be able to come and go as I please without having to worry about rushing home to cook someone dinner and being able to do what I want without having to answer to others.  BUT, on the other hand, it is sad (is that the right word, idk...) not having someone home waiting for you, or needing you to some degree, or having someone that looks forward to seeing you at the end of the day.

I realize that I need to channel all this emotional eating and free time into exercising.  I could be using all this free time to exercise in the evenings and to go on long walks that will also help clear my mind.  I need to think of being an empty-nester as a positive experience and another step in the direction of my new life.

On another note:  I walked 2 miles last night with my DD and we chatted, which was nice.  What wasn't so nice is that I was walking on flat ground and was huffing and puffing. :(  I remember the days when I could walk so fast that I would practically be jogging.  Those were the days that I got down to 179 pounds. I must get to that point again.  The point where I'm excited about exercise and weight loss.  I can do this.  Again.