This mornings weight = 238.0 That was hard to own up to but I have to face the music. I did not exercise at all over the weekend and I did not eat well. I didn't eat junk food but I ate way too much. Anyway, the results are still the same.
I know I was emotionally eating. I was thinking about how I miss my mom and my daughter and how I don't want to spend the rest of my life alone. I was even thinking about my failed marriage and what might have been. I think all these feelings came up becasue I was bored and lonely. I did journal about it but it was after I had already eaten too much. I just needed to get those feelings out of me.
I kept thinking of Sunny telling me to "fluff my nest", so I did just that. I dug out some different house decorations and rearranged some furniture. I don't have money for a new comforter set so I flipped my reversable one on the other side. I spiffed and freshened up the whole house the best I could with what I had. I need to must quit dwelling on what was and make the most of today. How can I move forward if my mind is still in the past? It's holding me back emotionally and physically. Time to shut down the pity party and make things happen and move onto the next stage of my life. I know this is what I need to do but I'm not sure how to do it. I do know that I need to focus on myself and being the best me that I can be.
I, too, had my set back on the scale and you're right, it is hard to own up to the emotional eating.
ReplyDeleteI agree with Sunny's advice to you--fluff up that next of yours. Even if you can't afford all new stuff, you can check out a thrift store or garage sale. Some of my favorite pretty little items came from other people's trash. Another one of my tricks is I treat myself to fresh flowers every week. There are always pretty bunches for undef $5 and if you split them up and put them in tiny vases and add free snipped greenery from your own yard, you can have flowers in every room of your house.
It's hard when life changes and we have to redefine our identities to meet the new changes. You're doing all the right things and by owning up to it immediately, you're back on the right path.
Hang in there.
hank - I LOVE the idea of fresh flowers throughout the house! I'm definitely going to give this a try. Thanks for your support :)
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