TOM has arrived and the scale is up 1.5 pounds. I think it's a combo of bloat and salt from eating kalamata olives and feta cheese. Now it's a waiting game to get it back off :\
I'm aggravated that the scale went up, even though there is a logical reason why, and I know that scale fluctuations are perfectly normal, it still bothers me.
Then the thoughts start coming: "You can't do this - you're going to gain all the weight back."
Even though I lost 30 pounds and my clothes keep getting bigger and I can fit into clothes that used to be too small, I somehow think I'm still the weight that I was 30 pounds ago. Even though I can see my body transforming in the mirror, it's like the weight loss isn't real and that I'm going to wake up with all of the weight back on again. I hate those thoughts. Why do they come? These are constant reminders that as we lose weight we have to work on our minds as well as out bodies.
NSVs :)
I'm able to fit into 3 pairs of pants that used to be too small and a girl that I work with commented on my weight loss yesterday and said that I'm looking great these days :)
Today is a half work day for me and I'm going to get my oil changed this afternoon. Tomorrow DD and I are having a yard sale so I will be pricing items and loading my car this evening so I don't think I'll have time for exercise. Maybe I can at least do the resistance bands for my arms.
We are both dealing with the same thing today. I'll be praying for both of us that God takes this fear and self doubt away. You have worked so hard, and are doing amazing. I am so proud of you, keep up the great work!
ReplyDeleteThanks, Lydia. I'm proud of you, too, and we are BOTH doing this whether we think we are or not :)
DeleteI know what you mean and I HATE those feelings. Lots of time it is those feelings that I unfortunately feed. But reaching out and expressing our emotions is uplifting some of them.
ReplyDeleteYou are both doing great. Just keep going and moving forward is all that you can do.
I am proud of you both.
Hugs
Congrats on your NSV's!
ReplyDeleteHooray for getting into those smaller sizes!
ReplyDeleteMy mind game is that I think I can do this any time; that if I went off plan today that would be okay because I'd get back on tomorrow. Of course that's why I spent 18 months without losing any weight. :(
Mind games suck. You can do this and are, how great that you can fit into smaller pants. That feels good. Keep up the good work, the bloat will go away. Have a great weekend.
ReplyDeleteYou are doing great, Sunny. I bet those thoughts are, in part, hormone fueled. Watch them disappear when TOM is gone!
ReplyDeleteWhere is you, sistah? :o
ReplyDeleteHey girlie! I took vacation day yesterday and now today I'm playing catch up. All is well. I hope to post later this afternoon. :)
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